I remember being pregnant with Isaac, and giving birth to him. He's my 3rd son, so I knew how to care for a baby. I was completely capable of changing his diapers and singing to him, feeding him and reading to him. I just loved him (still do!) And it wasn't too long before he got a little sister, then another, and a brother, and another sister. I wasn't really thinking too hard about raising my toddlers, I just tried to help them become kind and compassionate people. No hitting, don't spit, don't pee on other people's stuff, you know, the basics.
From the moment of his birth, Isaac has been busy! He moved fast! To this day, he thinks fast, he writes long detailed scenarios in his mind then plays them out with swords and sticks and heroes and bad guys. He remembers EVERYTHING he reads. He's a big hugger, and doesn't stop hugging until he hears bones crack. (Which really helps his wrestling career.) His childhood was a whirlwind of stories and stitches and amazing adventures! He is a fantastic guy who works hard to overcome life's challenges, and to make the world around him a more loving place. He's the guy that makes others feel welcome and safe.
And I am his inadequate mother.
It happens every time one of mine gets ready to go off into the big wide world. The questions arise. Did I teach him all he needs to know? I meant to teach him how to iron. Have I been too soft on him? Too hard? He's so caring and so trusting! Have I made him an easy mark? Should I have prepared him better for a cruel world? Is it my shortcoming to let him believe in people and trust them? The realization that I can't protect him is overwhelming! Have I taught him how to demand that his dates treat him with respect? Would he know what to do if she doesn't? Will he be taken advantage of? Did we ever talk about how to handle money? Will his heart get broken? Will he always be my little baby? Will I always be able to see that little boy in the Super Isaac Man costume in his eyes? Will he be okay without me?
I pray he knows this.
If I have taught him this, he has everything he needs.